Fertility Blues

DH And I are still trying for our baby.. I guess we are now 20 months trying...?

Argh it is so frustrating, we have tried two months of Clomid so far and have had an ok response to it but it is heart breaking that its just not working (yet).

I really hope that it will come together for us, I have another 2 or 3 cycles of Clomid to go before "the next step" whatever the fertility specialist decides that will be for us.

I have managed to get my head around IVF at least, the idea doesn't bring me to a crumbling heap of nerves, fear and panic.

Although I haven't managed to get over the increased risk of multiples with fertility treatments! Twins! Ahh! Hmm! Err! I'm not so sure I could cope, especially being a primary parent as DH works and works away a lot and we live abroad and away from a family support network!

Unfortunately though by having long cycles it means that everything takes soooo loooong. I feel like I am forever waiting for the fertile period and then forever waiting for when to test for that BFP.

Life is certainly testing me and testing my patience with living abroad and having fertility issues ;-)

Thank god for mumsnet and other online forums where you can chat to other ladies and hear their advice and what they are going through. Fertility problems is such a private thing that in "real life" its just not discussed amongst friends.

Anyway, almost entering the fertile period now... I guess I better go busy myself and my husband *wink wink*

New: Year, Country, Beginnings, Friends...

WOW! Its been almost six months since my last post, I can't believe where the time flies!

We have moved to a new country, DH has a new job, I'm learning a new language, making new friends, and trying to figure out what the heck is going on!

Unfortunately on the down side PCOS is still a b*tch but we struggle on and Soy Isoflavones have become my hero as far as shortening cycles and bringing forward/guaranteeing OV. 

The main lessons I have learned in the last 6 months is the patience of living out of a suitcase!

The lessons or things I wish to pass on to you...

• When you move country, use the first three months to put yourself out there - force yourself to meet new people, join that class, get out of your comfort zone and try out some local foods/language
• You can always do more in a day than you think. Give yourself a list of goals, not too long that you lose motivation, but push hard enough and you can always get that extra item ticked off that list!
• Never fight or lose patience with your in-laws. Its not worth it. Bite your tongue... you can do it. Just. a. few. more. weeks. living. all. together. Help. me!
• Don't let your husband walk over you. Speak up. You have a voice, it should always be heard. Your opinion matters. Don't put yourself to the bottom of the pile and don't take shit. 

Have a good month gorgeous readers...

I'll be back in 30 days (promise)